Monday, September 7, 2009
I would need one this big to erase my night terrors, which were especially severe as I re-visited this stretch of road. The last time I drove thru here was over 30 years ago..
I was severely ill, and had just miscarried. My then-husband was driving us back to the East Coast after our "honeymoon" in LA. I was feverish, depressed and desperate to escape the clutches of the man I married, but I had no where to turn for the help and support I needed.
When I drove this road again, the feelings from that time came flooding back. The day was windy, rainy with thunderstorms and sandstorms. The weather was threatening, urging me on and not to dawdle in this part of my journey through my past.
I stopped in Albuquerque to spend the night, but the terror found me there in my sleep as I dreamed. Alas, I had no dream-catcher over my bed to bring me peace, and I was haunted once more by the ghosts of my past.