"Anthem" by Leonard Cohen

"The birds they sang at the break of day
Start again, I heard them say
Don't dwell on what has passed away
or what has yet to be...

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in"

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Storm in the Desert

The weather suddenly turned ugly after our trip from the Grand Canyon across route 40 and New Mexico towards Albuquerque. The red dust was blowing hard everywhere, making visibility difficult at best. We started down the long and lonely path to the Petrified Forest in the face of fierce red dust storms and howling winds. I took it as an omen, telling us to turn around and head back to the main road. 

 The car was weighted down with all the things we were driving back to NYC with us from California, and to top it off, the "check engine" light came on as we headed further from the main road and into the national forest area. After my terrifying experience of almost loosing my brakes as we made our way down from 8,000 feet in Yosemite in the pitch black, I decided better safe than stranded in the deserts of New Mexico. I decided not to push our luck. By the time we got back to the highway, visibility was limited and the rain was pouring down in sheets. 

We managed to stop at the visitor's center off the main road, so we could see what we were missing, but the weather was getting even worse, so we headed into Albuquerque for the night. As we drove into town, the sky opened up and cleared. The bright New Mexico sun greeted us for the early evening, leaving the terror of the open road behind us. When we settled in for the evening, the storm we had left behind us became even more surreal and dreamlike in my memory. But the sounds of the howling winds and the raw power of the red dust lingered and haunted our dreams.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Painted Desert

Painted Desert my shot

We stopped at some of the native American reservations on our way from the Grand Canyon, and got this view of the Painted Desert. It was incredibly hot, dry and beautiful. 

The people selling the crafts were friendly and informative, and the desert was magical. This part of the journey back East was my favorite. The American Southwest, and the Great Basin, are special places. Magical and powerful. 

I hope I can get back here without a car full of my belongings someday and really explore this wild land....

Monday, September 7, 2009

Dreamcatcher

dreamcatcher Originally uploaded by musicmuse_ca

I took this along the side of Route 40 in New Mexico. The dream-catcher is said to change your dreams so that only good dreams filter through. Bad dreams are thought to be caught in the net, to disappear with the dawn. 

I would need one this big to erase my night terrors, which were especially severe as I re-visited this stretch of road. The last time I drove thru here was over 30 years ago.. I was severely ill, and had just miscarried. My then-husband was driving us back to the East Coast after our "honeymoon" in LA. I was feverish, depressed and desperate to escape the clutches of the man I married, but I had no where to turn for the help and support I needed. When I drove this road again, the feelings from that time came flooding back. The day was windy, rainy with thunderstorms and sandstorms. The weather was threatening, urging me on and not to dawdle in this part of my journey through my past. I stopped in Albuquerque to spend the night, but the terror found me there in my sleep as I dreamed. Alas, I had no dream-catcher over my bed to bring me peace, and I was haunted once more by the ghosts of my past.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Grand Canyon

Grand Canyon Originally uploaded by musicmuse_ca
My first visit to the Grand Canyon. We were lucky to have relatively moderate August weather and the sky was clear. I remember my mother telling me about her trips here....she went rafting the rapids in her fifties and took a helicopter ride over it as well. Nothing so adventuresome for me...just a view from the rim with my daughter and my doggie. Memories flood in about the last time I was near here over 30 years ago with my ex-husband. We were driving back from LA from our honeymoon, and even though I was physically not well, I still wanted to come north from Flagstaff to see the Grand Canyon. He refused and kept on driving back to Buffalo New York, where we were living at the time. Now I am making the long journey back to NYC, the place I fled from in my teens, retracing my steps and reliving all the mistakes I made along the way. It has been emotionally intense and draining, but I will be writing about some of this in future entries. For now, let's just enjoy the view!

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